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My Only Fear

Journal Entry: Thu May 15, 2008, 7:04 PM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Run Away - Linkin Park
  • Reading: My life
  • Playing: With my emotions
  • Eating: My mind
  • Drinking: Tears
...is love. It does not exist, I will not let it exist. Let's give a run-down of my life, shall we?

I did love someone once. I thought they loved me back. I was so happy, floating on air...love was everything, they were everything.

But I was mistaken.

Yeah, same teenage drama shit. Just a one-time fling and awkward as all hell. Got over them...

fell in love with them again.
Got my heart stabbed.

Kept at it.
Realized I should have never loved at all, how foolish I was...how stupid.

I can't say 'I love you' and mean it.
I've become so cold, I'm making my friends want to commit suicide.
My hate for myself has reached an all-time high.
This time...not even writing can calm me down.

I'm freaked at what a monster I've become. I'm seriously wondering how I managed to fuck up again. Just now...just when I let my real personality show...I have to break.

Why...didn't I die when I had the chance? I've had so many chances and managed to botch them up somehow. Not just attempts or plans, no...I mean, when I was born.

Why couldn't those fucking doctors just leave me the fuck alone? If I was born dead, don't fucking bring me back to life. Obviously, I wasn't meant to be here.

I don't want to be here.
Screw this.

Devious Information

  • Current Residence: Hanging with Marauders
  • Interests: RP| Marauders| Vampires| Yaoi
  • Favourite movie: Sweeney Todd
  • Favourite band or musician: Imogen Heap| Linkin Park
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything. ^^
  • Favourite artist: Whoever picks up a pencil
  • Favourite poet or writer: Robert Frost| JK Rowling
  • Favourite photographer: My Grandpa ^^
  • Favourite style or digital art: Manga| Anime
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod Nano
  • Skin of choice: Every color known to man
  • Favourite game: Guitar Hero III
  • Favourite gaming platform: Xbox
  • Personal Quote: "I can say I'm me and believe it."
  • Tools of the Trade: Mechanical Pencil, Sketch Paper, Inking Pens

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: 3 days 18 hours ago
No prob! :D

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: 3 days 18 hours ago
Very welcome! :)

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard
~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: 3 days 18 hours ago
No problema, dude!!! :D

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard
~Madjerac:iconMadjerac: 3 days 19 hours ago
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=Veggie-BurgerQueen:iconVeggie-BurgerQueen: 4 days 1 hour ago
Thanks a lot for the favourite! :heart:

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~potterpuppetpal:iconpotterpuppetpal: 4 days 3 hours ago
hey! thanks for the fav!!@!~!

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RAMEN TIME!!! :boogie:
~BullWings:iconBullWings: 4 days 16 hours ago
:blush:

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: 4 days 20 hours ago
No problem at all. :)

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard
~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: 4 days 20 hours ago
Very welcome. :)

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: 4 days 20 hours ago
Voted! :D I hope they win!! :hug:

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~BullWings:iconBullWings: 5 days 15 hours ago
Thanks for the favorite. :hart: :blackrose:

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~Trillium248:iconTrillium248: 6 days 6 hours ago
thank you for the :+fav: :heart:
*LuWerewolf:iconLuWerewolf: May 7, 2008, 12:39:43 PM
I was just wondering if you could vote in =Soul-Slayers pool Set B option 3 [link]
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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: May 4, 2008, 9:36:09 AM
Not a problem at all. :D

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Apr 30, 2008, 4:21:37 AM
No problema! :D

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~bettinaminamino:iconbettinaminamino: Apr 27, 2008, 7:12:30 PM
thanks for the fav ;D

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~Silvercresent11:iconSilvercresent11: Apr 24, 2008, 9:07:10 AM
:glomp:

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Apr 24, 2008, 8:17:15 AM
My pleasure! :D :hug:

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard
~Silvercresent11:iconSilvercresent11: Apr 24, 2008, 2:15:15 AM
Thankyou very much for the fave! :hug:

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Apr 21, 2008, 6:23:44 PM
No problem. ^^

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~Fieri:iconFieri: Apr 12, 2008, 6:33:13 PM
Thank you for the favourite.

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~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Apr 11, 2008, 7:39:33 AM
HELLZ YEAH! :D :glomp:

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard
~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Apr 11, 2008, 7:39:15 AM
My pleasure. :)

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard
~IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Apr 11, 2008, 7:39:04 AM
No prob! :D

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"You're about as maniacal as a box full of kittens." - Adam Sandler, The Longest Yard