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One More Time, bitch

Thu Jul 5, 2007, 4:47 PM
If mother calls me a 'lesbian' or 'not normal' one more time I swear I'll do something crazy. I don't care anymore. She's crossed the line into my life. There are boundaries. She's a parent, juts because she's my mother doesn't mean she has to hang over me 24/7, bitching and moaning about how fucked up I am. I'm done. I just feel like crying - but crying is for the weak. I won't, I can't. That'll just make her bug me even more...
'Get your hair out of your face'

Oh look, I just started crying, great. My dad walked in to see what was wrong and I just started crying. I can't think straight or type, I hate my life so much. Why does she hate me so much? No, I'm not perfect, I can't be. I just wish she would stop complaining about me...I am who I am, stop trying to change me.

Yes, I roleplay
Yes, I like my hair in my eyes
No, I am not normal
No, I am not a lesbian
Yes, sometimes I do wish I lived somewhere else
Yes, sometimes I am a 'little bitch'
Yes, sometimes I do hate you
Yes, sometimes I do wish I could die
Yes, I am depressed
Yes, seeing a counselor would be of great help
Yes, I do think you're an evil bitch
Yes, I still love you....

I can't stop loving my mom, despite what she may thinkl. I know she loves me, though we may clash more often than not. But - nevermind....

Thats all for now, maybe when I can stop crying and actually focus I can give a happier update. Thanks for reading.

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Iamme

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*taintedbliss:icontaintedbliss: Jul 5, 2007, 6:21:38 PM
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People do things when they're hormonal... Even if it's not right... :) Just don't listen to a word that she says... Ignore it and be yourself :) Your still pretty young :) Don't sweat it hon! :hug:

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~clinging-to-kotarou:iconclinging-to-kotarou: Jul 5, 2007, 8:19:11 PM
don't let your mom get to you dear. people say mean things...you don't let them bring you down. :hug: take care!!!

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you broke my dragon balls. i'm gonna kick you in the dragon balls!!!!!!
*IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Jul 6, 2007, 5:06:53 AM
:hug: Thank you, Shir. :) I'll try my best!

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*IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Jul 6, 2007, 5:07:57 AM
:aww: Thank you! I'll try to be stronger. :hug: You take care too!

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Getting together with old friends brings new adventures [in bed].

Because Americans love screwing with Chinese fortunes. :XD:

~Proud member of *Toaster-LifePro~
~RobbieDtkd:iconRobbieDtkd: Jul 6, 2007, 6:08:45 PM
I think you're already strong to be honest.
You know who you are and you know you dont want to be your mothers idea of "perfect". You just want to be you. Which is a lot more than most people can say. It's ok to get sad about this. And realise that you still love her, and she you; despite the differences.

Again thats more mature than most people can act. You're not hiding from it.

She'll come around and realise she loves you more for being your own person. Even if she can't see it yet.
I think you just need to keep going; being mature about it and holding steady to who you are but being patient of who she is.

"Dont be reckless with other peoples hearts, dont put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on.

Be careful who advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it."

(i have no idea who said that but i think its true)

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I am the master of my fate - I am the captain of my soul -
~clinging-to-kotarou:iconclinging-to-kotarou: Jul 6, 2007, 7:48:22 PM
:hug: :heart: i'm here if you need a friend to talk to. :)

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you broke my dragon balls. i'm gonna kick you in the dragon balls!!!!!!
*IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Jul 6, 2007, 9:30:04 PM
Thank you so much for the positive comment. :) It really means a lot. Some say teen years are the hardest parts of growing up, maybe I'm just going through that phase. :D I'll continue to try and be strong and shall stick closely by that quote, thank you again. :hug:

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Getting together with old friends brings new adventures [in bed].

Because Americans love screwing with Chinese fortunes. :XD:

~Proud member of *Toaster-LifePro~
*IJustWannaBeMe:iconIJustWannaBeMe: Jul 6, 2007, 9:34:36 PM
:hug: Thank you so much. I'm feeling much better now, just need to get through to my mom. (If possible) There will come a day, and then I'll look back on these hard times and smile. :) Life will be good. :heart:

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Getting together with old friends brings new adventures [in bed].

Because Americans love screwing with Chinese fortunes. :XD:

~Proud member of *Toaster-LifePro~
~clinging-to-kotarou:iconclinging-to-kotarou: Jul 10, 2007, 2:06:25 PM
that's the best way to look at it all. the shit won't last forever,in time all will be good. :D that's how i see it~

take care now.

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you broke my dragon balls. i'm gonna kick you in the dragon balls!!!!!!
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